So my fiance has been begging me to write something,anything! and I kept putting him off...the writing bug has not been around for a really long time and too much has happend in my life that I really did not have time to write.
Its been two months since I have officially been back to work and its killing me! Mad respect to all mother's y'all! Now I know. Most of my peers have been sending me inboxes of late asking for advise here and there about motherhood and I feel really honored :) So in honor of that, I will document sneak peaks of my motherhood experiences the best way I know how (Darn! my writing mojo just went and dissapeared with the dogs....sigh!)
a) Pregnancy
I have to say this was the most beautiful part of motherhood for me and the most challenging. I vividly remember when I first got the results of my pregnancy test..FEAR,PANIC,HORROR were the words that were running through my head. I was barely out of Uni, with a boyfriend I had dated for about seven months, still living at my STRICT folks place and a job that did not earn me enough! I cried myself to sleep for several days after that...and then I cried some more! The day I got a wake up call, is the day I went to the hospital and I was told I had some bleeding and a cyst!!! First instinct,protect my child as fiercely as I could...I was 8 weeks pregnant and it was the day I broke the news to my parents....There reaction, not what I expected. All I can say is, I thank God as my journey was smooth until my water broke!
b) Giving Birth
It was a chilly Monday morning....WHO AM I KIDDING..Scratch the descriptions! It was one Monday I will never forget! I had just come from being admitted in the hospital the previous night (Case of false labor) and was advised that I would have to wait three more days before baby was about to arrive. I remember feeling off that Sunday night but I was not about to doubt doctor's orders!So I ate my dinner and went straight to bed..then the itsy bitsy pains started. I being the strong woman that I am waited them out until that time I could not move. I called my little sister who then rushed to call dad who came in only to tell me it was not yet time.
5:00 a.m.-I am seriously pressed and I waddle to the loo,1st round, I walk back to my bedroom the feeling does not go away,2nd round and my water broke! ANXIETY GALORE :)
5:30 a.m.-Already at the hospital dilated 2 centimeters...still too far along. In my dad's wisdom, I was left alone with the foresight that I will give birth at 6 p.m. by which time he will be around to hold my hand. I REMAINED CALM
11 a,m-4 centimeters dilated. The pains get intence, I can still receive calls. I am strong!
2:00 p.m- 7 centimeters dilated. I feel like beating everything and everyone. I still receive calls with a smile but in actual sense am dying. I am breathing frantically and praying like I have never done in my life. Did I say I was dying???
2:15 p.m.- I call the nurse...Scratch that, I SHOUT for the nurse, I am alone.I am in pain.I am STRONG! I tell her I need to go to the loo and she tells me to relax. I tell her if I make one more step I will poop on myself *sounds funny huh?* She hears that and rushes for the wheelchair! I head to the delivery room.
2:30 p.m.- 5 pushes,a tiny cut and VIOLA! I hear my little one cry...OH GOLLY! I shed tears like a baby and all the pain went away. That moment surpasses all other beautiful moments I have ever experienced...It was SURREAL :)
c) Breastfeeding
I was so green when it came to breastfeeding. I thought all I had to do was place the baby on my boobies and I was good to go. Wrong! I had to help my baby learn how to latch and the first few days was painful as hell! I had cracked nipples,a cramping tummy (apparently breastfeeding contracts the uterus and hence the cramping),swollen legs,tired body and a mountain of sleep deprivation! I was just having the taste of what being mummy entails :) Anyhu, I got past that and we learned (baby and I) how to breastfeed efficiently. Now its such an enjoyable time for both of us! You should see her try and grab my clothes while feeding! Hilarious :)
d) Esteem issues
Don't even get me started on this. I used to look at my tummy on the mirror everyday and get depressed, not even the encouragement from my fiance and family telling me that it will be fine used to encourage me. The pressure to get back into shape was immense! Then I eventually realized that enough was enough! everything has its own place and time. C'mon! I had just given life. That should be good enough right? So I begin eating right and tying the flab with a "leso" hoping I would get my sexy back...5 months later, I cant complain one bit!
All in all, I am having an amazing experience, I encounter challenges everyday especially now that am officially back to work but I am overcoming them one challenge after another. My precious turns 5 months in a few, I have got an amazing support system and I am proud to label myself a SUPER MOM even though more times than not I don't feel so super....Feel free to ask and comment..I am one typed word away from sharing! Well that was a lot of writing!
Till next time, when there will be a next time...In the meantime I am mesmerized in my own strength :)
Its been two months since I have officially been back to work and its killing me! Mad respect to all mother's y'all! Now I know. Most of my peers have been sending me inboxes of late asking for advise here and there about motherhood and I feel really honored :) So in honor of that, I will document sneak peaks of my motherhood experiences the best way I know how (Darn! my writing mojo just went and dissapeared with the dogs....sigh!)
a) Pregnancy
I have to say this was the most beautiful part of motherhood for me and the most challenging. I vividly remember when I first got the results of my pregnancy test..FEAR,PANIC,HORROR were the words that were running through my head. I was barely out of Uni, with a boyfriend I had dated for about seven months, still living at my STRICT folks place and a job that did not earn me enough! I cried myself to sleep for several days after that...and then I cried some more! The day I got a wake up call, is the day I went to the hospital and I was told I had some bleeding and a cyst!!! First instinct,protect my child as fiercely as I could...I was 8 weeks pregnant and it was the day I broke the news to my parents....There reaction, not what I expected. All I can say is, I thank God as my journey was smooth until my water broke!
b) Giving Birth
It was a chilly Monday morning....WHO AM I KIDDING..Scratch the descriptions! It was one Monday I will never forget! I had just come from being admitted in the hospital the previous night (Case of false labor) and was advised that I would have to wait three more days before baby was about to arrive. I remember feeling off that Sunday night but I was not about to doubt doctor's orders!So I ate my dinner and went straight to bed..then the itsy bitsy pains started. I being the strong woman that I am waited them out until that time I could not move. I called my little sister who then rushed to call dad who came in only to tell me it was not yet time.
5:00 a.m.-I am seriously pressed and I waddle to the loo,1st round, I walk back to my bedroom the feeling does not go away,2nd round and my water broke! ANXIETY GALORE :)
5:30 a.m.-Already at the hospital dilated 2 centimeters...still too far along. In my dad's wisdom, I was left alone with the foresight that I will give birth at 6 p.m. by which time he will be around to hold my hand. I REMAINED CALM
11 a,m-4 centimeters dilated. The pains get intence, I can still receive calls. I am strong!
2:00 p.m- 7 centimeters dilated. I feel like beating everything and everyone. I still receive calls with a smile but in actual sense am dying. I am breathing frantically and praying like I have never done in my life. Did I say I was dying???
2:15 p.m.- I call the nurse...Scratch that, I SHOUT for the nurse, I am alone.I am in pain.I am STRONG! I tell her I need to go to the loo and she tells me to relax. I tell her if I make one more step I will poop on myself *sounds funny huh?* She hears that and rushes for the wheelchair! I head to the delivery room.
2:30 p.m.- 5 pushes,a tiny cut and VIOLA! I hear my little one cry...OH GOLLY! I shed tears like a baby and all the pain went away. That moment surpasses all other beautiful moments I have ever experienced...It was SURREAL :)
c) Breastfeeding
I was so green when it came to breastfeeding. I thought all I had to do was place the baby on my boobies and I was good to go. Wrong! I had to help my baby learn how to latch and the first few days was painful as hell! I had cracked nipples,a cramping tummy (apparently breastfeeding contracts the uterus and hence the cramping),swollen legs,tired body and a mountain of sleep deprivation! I was just having the taste of what being mummy entails :) Anyhu, I got past that and we learned (baby and I) how to breastfeed efficiently. Now its such an enjoyable time for both of us! You should see her try and grab my clothes while feeding! Hilarious :)
d) Esteem issues
Don't even get me started on this. I used to look at my tummy on the mirror everyday and get depressed, not even the encouragement from my fiance and family telling me that it will be fine used to encourage me. The pressure to get back into shape was immense! Then I eventually realized that enough was enough! everything has its own place and time. C'mon! I had just given life. That should be good enough right? So I begin eating right and tying the flab with a "leso" hoping I would get my sexy back...5 months later, I cant complain one bit!
All in all, I am having an amazing experience, I encounter challenges everyday especially now that am officially back to work but I am overcoming them one challenge after another. My precious turns 5 months in a few, I have got an amazing support system and I am proud to label myself a SUPER MOM even though more times than not I don't feel so super....Feel free to ask and comment..I am one typed word away from sharing! Well that was a lot of writing!
Till next time, when there will be a next time...In the meantime I am mesmerized in my own strength :)
Damn these onions!!!:D...this is a phenomenal piece.Real,moving,touching...looking forward to more of these.congratulations dear n well am looking forward to avn a story more like urs hopefully in sm years or so to cm,cnt wait tho.I av a feeling being a mom is more than a blessing
ReplyDeleteThanks for dropping by...Being a mum is surreal.Its challenging but the joys outweigh the challenges! I am sure you will make such a good mummy! I will keep em coming
ReplyDeleteYou, you are blessed!
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Every day is a new experience in motherhood. Brace yourself for more joys my dear. She will crawl,walk,speak in tongues,call you mum,finally talk,doodle,want to go to school,use her potty....welll,that's where am at now. I must say,there is no bigger blessing than being a parent!
ReplyDeleteThanks Sheba! Hugs right back at you!
ReplyDeleteKaytie, I can't wait...especially for the part where she calls me mummy
ReplyDeleteoooh wow, i must say you've scared me abt the delivery bit...for now wacha tulee the Angel till Gods time.
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