Random chic in a not so random town

"HEAVEN I NEED A LONG SERIOUS HUG" This is what I have been feeling this past few weeks. I have tried carrying the weight of the world but I only have two hands. One head and one heart. I need to have wisdom beyond my years,I need to have strength beyond my tiny frame, I need to have resilience beyond my might. Sometimes I feel like sleeping and waking up when everything is over and my heart and mind are in the right place..does anyone else ever feel like this? Well if there is anything growing up has taught me is that it will not be easy...and words will only make you feel better for a while and that the waiting will test you beyond anything you will ever experience and that faith is personal and that nothing is ever handed to you on a silver plate...and that in as much as we may never understand what is happening to us now, its all worth the wait (I hope) "Who am I? What is my purpose here?Is there anything I should have done differently? Am I making enough impac...

So my fiance has been begging me to write something,anything! and I kept putting him off...the writing bug has not been around for a really long time and too much has happend in my life that I really did not have time to write. Its been two months since I have officially been back to work and its killing me! Mad respect to all mother's y'all! Now I know. Most of my peers have been sending me inboxes of late asking for advise here and there about motherhood and I feel really honored :) So in honor of that, I will document sneak peaks of my motherhood experiences the best way I know how (Darn! my writing mojo just went and dissapeared with the dogs....sigh!) a) Pregnancy I have to say this was the most beautiful part of motherhood for me and the most challenging. I vividly remember when I first got the results of my pregnancy test..FEAR,PANIC,HORROR were the words that were running through my head. I was barely out of Uni, with a boyfriend I had dated for about seven months,...