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Dear Child of mine


I have been on a journey and it has been bumpy on some instances but mostly full of wonderful amazing moments:) Today however I have been touched by the many friends of mine who have decided to take the motherhood path at young ages while still pursuing their dreams at their careers and some in furthering their education. It’s no secret that I am attached to babies, and on this note, I will write a letter to my baby (however time you decide to come) and hope that someday, while they are trying to snoop and uncover my past, they will stumble upon this letter to them and realize that much( or not much) was going on in my head and settling in my heart...Here goes by disdain attempt at capturing those souring emotions,

Dear Baby of mine,
I am afraid of so many things in this life. I am afraid that I might not be good enough for you, I am afraid that in my attempt to rebel against how my parents brought me up, I might spoil you too much and veer from the path I should have taken, I am mortified that I will not know when to become your parent and when you want me to be your caring listening friend. The world has changed so much! It will continue to change even years after you arrive. I will feel the insatiable need to protect you and shield you from all the bad things change comes with. Maybe this will prevent you from discovering your true essence and clip the wings that will sour you to lands of imagination, but all that will be going through my mind will be my bid at becoming a better parent. So please forgive me.
I see firsthand what love can do. It blinds irrefutably! And it comforts and adds value beyond any human understanding! I want you to know how to love selflessly from seeing me and your father interact. I would hate to raise you alone, but if ever that becomes the case, I would love for you to be impartial and devoid hate and anger because in this world my child, people need each other.

I will embarrass you once in a while trying to get with the times…staying hip and young so your friends can think am the coolest sexiest thing that dropped on this planet! It’s nothing personal. All passed down from generation to generation :) but I will not hesitate to be the hand that corrects you when it comes down to it.

I guess I will be doing a little growing up of my own..but me and you are going to make a very good team someday :)

Love always,
Maman

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