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One less lonely Girl...


I sit at the corner of the office and observe. I have always had pride in the fact that I am an observer. I can tell who I can easily connect with and whom I can’t. It partly depresses me that I can’t walk over to someone else’s desk and just chill, be myself and make noise. I am afraid of coming off too noisy but am bordering on too quiet and not easily approachable. I wish I could be the type to talk before someone else starts the conversation.
At this point I start to envy my boyfriend. I imagine what he would do in my situation. Knowing him, he would probably just walk to someone’s desk and pick a conversation about just anything. He would be nice and kind and talkative at the same time without coming off as too much. BOY and I wonder why I fell in love with the guy! He is phenomenon!!
Anyhu back to my situation here. I miss my friends at my former place. I miss the catching up we did when there was no internet, or when someone on the opposing gang did something stupid. I miss communicating on Skype! Oh I miss Skype terribly!! I miss not having work and not having KPIs (those used to suck  most of the time though) I miss having a lunch buddy and someone who would understand that I did not have money to buy lunch at certain places. I miss being in the zone and walking home lazily after work just recapping about my day.
It’s my fourth week here and I am learning the value of fighting for my space, the value of holding my own and having my ideas come to life.I admire the people here. They work because they love what they do. I see the amount of passion they pour into their work and I want to be like them. I am constantly challenged beyond my imagination to be the best I can be. The hunger in these people whom I now call my workmates make some of my former ones fade in comparison. In my loneliness I still remain awed.

What am I saying?? I totally love being here!! Totally and being a Monday, that is a really good thing No?

Jealous Much? Me too...time to work on my CHARM


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  1. Sokie15 May 2012 at 20:47

    Im seeing the frequency is gud.continue with the work.

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