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The heart RULES!!!

I feel like writing.About topics that do not make sense. Because everything has stopped making sense anymore and reason looks like an excuse the faint hearted give themselves not to explore. I am going to go with the irrational heart and write this post with the heart and not the head. I am making peace with my environment and so far am loving it! I am becoming one with the purpose my life is supposed to fulfill in this world. I was talking to my best friend today, and she told me the most sensible thing I have ever had someone say and I quote 'human beings have been so afraid to be happy because of all the bad things that keep happening, such that when a chance to be genuinely happy presents itself they shy away from it and FEAR'

I have been in the ''FEAR" zone for a while with relationships especially because most of them have gone down South. I therefore learned early enough not to involve too many people. Usually the cycle went on like a piece of broken record with Girl meeting Boy, Sparks flying all over the place, physical attraction, Dawning reality, Boredom, Nasty Shit...Breakup (amicably or not) then the explanations to what happened start flying!I was basically tired of that Sh*t (For lack of a better word) and made a conscience decision to only let in people when I was sure what I felt.

Thing is, we will never be sure because they all come in difference phases of out lives...the only thing I realized was needed to be done is enjoy the moment and soak in the happiness. If the moment is bliss ENJOY it and SCREAM to the whole world if you have to because you were intended to be in that state in that particular moment...On that same note,  I am one happy woman! I have a man who loves me,spoils me,adores me,makes me laugh BUT is not afraid to keep me in check when am letting things fall out of perspective. Every time that happens, I look to the heavens, SMILE and say God, I know that was you!

Yes...I am a hopeless romantic, and if it is the last thing I will do, is love without holding back and not let "FEAR" get the best of me. At this particular moment, I was intended to be loved and to love back...for that reason only, I am HAPPY!!!

Till later Muchachos :)

*P.S. Sorry I have not blogged in a while...the cold tends to bring out the lazy!

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