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RANTINGS OF A RAGING SOUL

If someone would have told me what would happen to me this year in just two months I would have told them to stop smoking too much weed... I am writing this to hopefully capture your attention and so you can forgive me for not blogging in months!! OK maybe weeks but shame be on me!It is just that, I have not hit a writer's block this month, far from it...I have been experiencing the Universe and its work in my life LITERALLY!
The chronicles of this girl life are many and not so many girls my age have walked down the road that I am seeming to walk and not broken down to a tear or two.

I  miss the rush of satisfaction from work. I don't consider myself a workaholic but I love going back home and putting my foot up the stool knowing I did something to reward my awesome brain, I like spending my money (or lack of) on things to spoil myself because I know when it is getting out of the wallet that I worked for it. Lately that has not been the case. Everything started going down south the end of last year but I was just too full of hope to see it coming. I am a career woman, I aspire to grow and soak all the knowledge in my field of work but NOTHING is happening.

Some would say I have got the best job in the world but I would have to disagree. I come to work, open my laptop, go into the internet, open all the social sites and chat my fingers away. Then everyone gets bored of me in the chat room and leave just like a thieves, In the loneliness, I go to my folders and find an archive of movies...this random chic indulges until the clock strikes 5 and it is time to leave...she carries her bags and leaves! Before you start judging me, I would have you know that my salary has been delayed for the last three months...I have even acquired a new name among my monied friends :) "Madam broke is approaching". If that is not enough, I now know how hard it is to get a job -does not have to be well paying- in this godforsaken country!!

I have become the epitome of a very sleek vampire, hungry for the satisfaction of the mind...hunting in every corner I see, waiting, hoping, praying that job will come to me, just like a blood succulent hunt would quench a Vampire's thirst. I can not do this alone..so I rely on God. In a God others claim not to see but He exists in everything surrounding us. I rely on the vessels he has placed on this earth for me,vessels specified to propel me to greater height..He has placed two vessels who wake up everyday with me in mind and fight for me! They share in my woes, understand my frustrations and embrace my hopes as their own and choose to believe in me! I thank God for them and I know I will not have to wait for long:)

Not much to write only the rantings of a raging soul ! NEXT TIME I WILL WRITE ON A LIGHTER NOTE...My hilarious childhood :)

Till later peeps:) I hope y'all are not having yet another broke end month like me *chuckle*

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  1. sweety... feels like am the one who wrote this.... we are sooo sailing in the same damn forsaken boat..! woi.. we shall propel to greater heights

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  2. To propel we shall for now we languish in brokenness and near poverty :)

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