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I have not written on this blog for a whiiiiiiile...OK even that is an understatement. I have not had the juices flow in a long time and things have been kinda hectic on my end. As is my tradition, Its almost end of year and I have several things to document...It is that time of the year where I reflect, think about all the things that have happened in my life and sigh*2012 has been a pretty good year! So first things first... a) My Job Have you ever had a love/ hate relationship with your job? Well, lets just say am one of those people. My kinda job is fascinating, mind boggling even...the kind of processes that go through getting work out are intricate and it fascinates me and some people are pleasent to hang out with BUT others tho! Enough said. That said and done, I am now permanent and I thank God for the far he has brought me. Building my confidence in my ability to be the best at what I do. God has been great. b) My folks/ Family There is a phrase commonly used that I tot...

I have been on a journey and it has been bumpy on some instances but mostly full of wonderful amazing moments:) Today however I have been touched by the many friends of mine who have decided to take the motherhood path at young ages while still pursuing their dreams at their careers and some in furthering their education. It’s no secret that I am attached to babies, and on this note, I will write a letter to my baby (however time you decide to come) and hope that someday, while they are trying to snoop and uncover my past, they will stumble upon this letter to them and realize that much( or not much) was going on in my head and settling in my heart...Here goes by disdain attempt at capturing those souring emotions, Dear Baby of mine, I am afraid of so many things in this life. I am afraid that I might not be good enough for you, I am afraid that in my attempt to rebel against how my parents brought me up, I might spoil you too much and veer from the path I should have t...

The month of August 2012 will forever be etched in my mind as the month that really defined me. In splits of seconds my destiny had been clearly chatted down in a canvas and it was upon me to decide what I would do with it. In that one moment, I felt weaker that I have ever felt yet stronger than I was ever going to be…I felt tears well in my eyes and a smile carving in my mouth, I felt my knees grow weak and my heart pumping the hardest it had ever pumped to survive. I held on, I chose the hard path out and I hoped that it would be worth it in the end. For one whole week I was spaced out. My reality quickly became my fantasies in reverse. There was everything to look forward to and nothing tangible to tell me I was just a step away from achieving everything I had hoped for. Day after day, I walked on eggshells wondering how the rest of the world was going to internalize what I was about to tell them. What was going on in their tiny little minds, or not, concerning me, was about ...

Its been a while since I posted on my baby, my blog! been hella busy and I hate the fact that I have not been updating you all on all the juicy stuff that has been going on in my life. My best friend finally came back! you don't want to know how excited that makes me feel. Its been six freaking months of having no one to really gossip about the people we know..no one to bitch about the things girls only bitch about! and no one to understand that I can't do some stuff because I am going through some other stuff as well. All in all, I am glad she is back! I had a huge fight with someone I never thought I would. When that happened, I remembered feeling hurt, betrayed, stabbed in the back and a whole load of a conspiracy of emotions. I felt cheated to have always thought they would understand. And although that is all gone now and they sent a weak apology my way, I can't help but think for them its all about judgment. I feel that even though work prevents me from having ma...

I need a well deserved break after the event am working on is over! My my my...I am beating myself up for not being out there and doing stuff to spice up my weekends when I had the chance to! Working for the company am working for earns me a lot of points...but the pressure that comes with it is just on a whole new level warrr :) Granted, I am coping well and on some days when things just look bad and gloom, I take a moment of silence and remind myself that it is never that serious...It really is not. I know I have taken  a break from the love of my life, the baby conceived from my mind and the pride of my life(this blog) but I will be back :) You wait and see!!The day I will be seated at a salon having my mani-pedi being done without having to rush for a last minute work crisis is the day I will document the making of me :) For now my loves, you will have to pardon my manners and let the manic wind pass :( Till then I am in my own cocoon of confusion and lack of personal time...

I have not been here in a very long time....Thing is I have been looking for avenues to write but something else keeps coming up.I am pained by it literally, because as usual I have a lot of stories to tell the world..my dad says storytellers are the best liars but I disagree :) That's because that statement directly implicates me... Last week was probably the best week I have had in a long time: Nothing extra ordinary happened, nothing to write home about but everything my heart cant begin to fathom...I probably treat this blog like my personal diary what the hell?? I will never get real in person like I get on this blog :) I am going to make an attempt on how my week went and hopeful get to capture the super highlights ( those girlie melting moments) of my life !! I am in love ( No secret there) but this time for all the right reasons...I think *dikes and hides face* so most of what made my week has to do with that special person in my life Monday: Had a random coffee date ...

I sit at the corner of the office and observe. I have always had pride in the fact that I am an observer. I can tell who I can easily connect with and whom I can’t. It partly depresses me that I can’t walk over to someone else’s desk and just chill, be myself and make noise. I am afraid of coming off too noisy but am bordering on too quiet and not easily approachable. I wish I could be the type to talk before someone else starts the conversation. At this point I start to envy my boyfriend. I imagine what he would do in my situation. Knowing him, he would probably just walk to someone’s desk and pick a conversation about just anything. He would be nice and kind and talkative at the same time without coming off as too much. BOY and I wonder why I fell in love with the guy! He is phenomenon!! Anyhu back to my situation here. I miss my friends at my former place. I miss the catching up we did when there was no internet, or when someone on the opposing gang did something stupid. I m...

 Last month saw me doing a lot of job applications...I was desperate and for that reason only, I poured my heart on each and every application. One in particular made me write an article for the position of a social media expert! I was thrilled at the prospects because its what I love to do...entertain and inform through my words.. I got the reply with a regret along with it :) But hey I gave it my all :- I had no idea what God had planned for me up till now am amazed at the turn of events in my life! ENJOY I feel like a performer. I am performing at a club downtown where stools have been turned into seats and seats into amateur beds. I am walking onto the stage for the first time and all I can feel is my heart pounding in rhythms that can never be recorded. I am anxious and excited all at once and I cannot tell which of the two emotions wins the battle to my maiden introduction. The crowd is silent, pin drop silent. I can’t tell whether they are eager or indifferent ...

I sat there looking waiting in anticipation,I had an arm around my shoulder. It provided me with the kind of comfort I had never imagined I would get at a night like this. The sound of the rain was drenching everything else but my spirit remained strong. I stopped and listened at the inner voices around me. I was at the perfect place at the perfect moment with the perfect person. The music on the background was sensational and the faces stole a piece of my heart with the expectation. The MC came on stage and the hall ripped with the kind of laughter that was rare and unnatural yet sweetly so. I was in love with the whole scenario and in awe at the person who got me here. This is my attempt at capturing the mood that was present at the night of 1000 laughs.. I had never attended this event before and I must say I thoroughly enjoyed myself! Highlights of the events : The Ugandan comedian brought the house down!  almost died literally of laughter. The guy had jokes..and he knew wh...

I was celebrating my one year blog anniversary last month but lo and alas! I forgot!! How can  I forget?? How can I forget all the work and sweat I have put into this baby of mine? Well same question I have been asking myself all week hoping to get an answer somewhere there :) I know am making an attempt at softening the landing, mine's a gone case, I should be taken and thrown to the dogs for not blogging in a mighty long time *stop smiling in approval* am softening the landing :) Anyway I have a reason- I don't mean a shelved  nonsensical reason, I mean a real reason..It has been a crazy month-Last month and amidst all that craziness, the blogging bug did not strike for a while well..until today. I feel more settled today after the fruits of my labor were appreciated yesterday :) All that screaming by ATWOLI made me think that I deserve to be here in this moment and now...working for a company I love :) RECAP: Life since January has been brutal and the highlight of it all...

That is the song making my Friday!! I am so sorry for not blogging for a while. I am not making an attempt at doing a proper comprehensive post today...so shoot me when you see me! i am seriously giving you permission :) Its been a crazy month especially with me quitting and all but God remains faithful ALWAYS Again: LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE BUSY PLANNING More comprehensive post later then the chronicles continue !!

I remember sitting at my work desk on one chilly Friday afternoon (last Friday, it is not like it was too long ago) and thinking to myself, what a waste of precious time! I am always in control of my emotions and I like it that way, so when something happens to challenge that status quo, I react and take to my heels. I have never been so vulnerable, and the message on my phone did not make things any amusing than they were! I am known for my impatience, and the fact that I had remained patient for thus long is proof that I had matured in my thoughts and in my dealings. So I was challenged, by the highest form of white and black lies...with deception covered in sweet words, with details that had the devil written all over them. I was a wounded heart and I realized I had taken this too far...not the battle I mean, my patience..I did something about it though and sat down to write what I should have written months ago- My resignation letter. I had thought this was something ...

I feel like writing.About topics that do not make sense. Because everything has stopped making sense anymore and reason looks like an excuse the faint hearted give themselves not to explore. I am going to go with the irrational heart and write this post with the heart and not the head. I am making peace with my environment and so far am loving it! I am becoming one with the purpose my life is supposed to fulfill in this world. I was talking to my best friend today, and she told me the most sensible thing I have ever had someone say and I quote 'human beings have been so afraid to be happy because of all the bad things that keep happening, such that when a chance to be genuinely happy presents itself they shy away from it and FEAR' I have been in the ''FEAR" zone for a while with relationships especially because most of them have gone down South. I therefore learned early enough not to involve too many people. Usually the cycle went on like a piece of broken recor...

A friend of mine has just reminded me that I was supposed to do a story on my hilarious childhood. Truth be told I have been pretty occupied with my current state of affairs that I had even forgotten that I was meant to do such a story. I have tried recapping what was going through my mind at that time but am not coming up with anything...so anyways straight to the Agenda of the day.. I was in a mat the other day and I heard these two ladies talk about how their childhood was fun and how they used to do all these gisty Nairobi type events, chill at the Village Market and the Splash and I was left wondering where the hell did I grow up!!None the less, my childhood was far less from uneventful, far far from it. Now that we have already established that I am not a city girl, and that I only physically saw a Mall when I first came to Nairobi, I will proceed on to tell you how my growing up affected me and somewhat made me the woman I am today. Here goes a lot of monkey balls!!! Have yo...