I have been reading a blog by Jackson Biko these past few days and I think he is my mule. The guy has a beautiful command of language and his articles are flowy, they sound like beautiful music to the heart, a kind of sweetness that can't be tasted..but is so profound you can almost taste it..Now I live for that blog (he is not a demi God but he has a gift!) I can't say am a writer either, am just hungry for word play and honestly enough for validation- which most people also look for but if they read this, would think am a being vain) It somehow comes with my age so forgive me :)
I am inspired by an article he wrote about women and even though he is not a woman himself, he attempts to understand us in the way a man does. he gets in to our psyche and tries to redeem/condemn us from a chauvinistic/almost feminist kind of manner and I love it because it brings such a crisp picture of what we are without exploring too much. As a woman I almost find myself hanging onto every word he says and I hate that I do that because he should not influence my opinions in such a profound manner,but he does...This is my lousy attempt at an intro but I guess its better than nothing considering I have not been in my zone lately *chuckle*
Its almost the close of the year and for most of us it represents broken dreams, achieved success,lost chances,made mistakes and unexpected triumphs. To me it represents many lessons. Lessons I did not know existed until I attempted to live my life without a pre-written script,and from that lesson I coined the kind of woman I want to represent in the eyes of men. I want to define myself on this platform although definitions are overrated. I want to expose what I desire without sounding clever,cocky or overbearing...I am laying down the canvas and I am painting down the picture I die to see people hold in awe with the words that I write. I am validating myself before the world and its cruel harsh judgement but an taking a step at teaching that man for me what kind of woman he is looking at....and what kind of love he will offer me....I am becoming a teacher in my own rite and am setting boxes that people need to think out of...with every waking day with every carefully typed word.
A friend of mine asked me over the weekend if I thought I was sexy and I shook my head in a nonchalant disdain at his attempt of boldness. He looked at me with surprise because according to him all he could see was a sexy, smart woman who was giving a tough aura even though he smelled vulnerability deep seated within . So here is the point. I don't think an sexy, I think am sensual. I am the kind of woman who will not wear super short handkerchiefs to get men Lusting after me (Well I have had those days, but like I said I have learned many lessons), I will not conform to stereotypes of being the Nairobi woman, because am not. I am the kind of woman who is not afraid to voice her opinion because it makes a man look small but I will not do it out of spite, I only do it because I believe something beautiful will come out of it. I have pride like the unshakable mountains of the world...but I know when to stoop low and let things be, I am not afraid of apologizing when I have done something wrong or I have hurt someone.
I am the kind of woman who is a hopeless romantic,whose mind has been twisted and turned by the wickedness of this world, but still believes that there are good people out there. I am the kind of woman who holds her own.When I walk into a room and people stare, I want to fall because am modest enough to know no human being should be worshiped but am not afraid to command the attention of the room. I might not be the hottest woman this planet has ever seen, but I know my worth.I may be many things, even many bad things but I know he meaning of loyalty and trust and friendship and LOVE.
So if you are a random boy reading this, and you think am one hell of a complicated woman, I am a random chic who knows what she wants and what she is bringing forth to this world...I am alive and it is for that reason that I choose to stop existing and start living...the only way to do that it to give without expecting much, because human beings will disappoint you but I also know there is divine power, who rewards ever so generously...and that day will come when I will get me one fine piece of a$$ who will love me like there is no one else in this world who exists for him...
I am in a happy, happy place :) so don't ruin it !
Till later muchachos :*
I am inspired by an article he wrote about women and even though he is not a woman himself, he attempts to understand us in the way a man does. he gets in to our psyche and tries to redeem/condemn us from a chauvinistic/almost feminist kind of manner and I love it because it brings such a crisp picture of what we are without exploring too much. As a woman I almost find myself hanging onto every word he says and I hate that I do that because he should not influence my opinions in such a profound manner,but he does...This is my lousy attempt at an intro but I guess its better than nothing considering I have not been in my zone lately *chuckle*
Its almost the close of the year and for most of us it represents broken dreams, achieved success,lost chances,made mistakes and unexpected triumphs. To me it represents many lessons. Lessons I did not know existed until I attempted to live my life without a pre-written script,and from that lesson I coined the kind of woman I want to represent in the eyes of men. I want to define myself on this platform although definitions are overrated. I want to expose what I desire without sounding clever,cocky or overbearing...I am laying down the canvas and I am painting down the picture I die to see people hold in awe with the words that I write. I am validating myself before the world and its cruel harsh judgement but an taking a step at teaching that man for me what kind of woman he is looking at....and what kind of love he will offer me....I am becoming a teacher in my own rite and am setting boxes that people need to think out of...with every waking day with every carefully typed word.
A friend of mine asked me over the weekend if I thought I was sexy and I shook my head in a nonchalant disdain at his attempt of boldness. He looked at me with surprise because according to him all he could see was a sexy, smart woman who was giving a tough aura even though he smelled vulnerability deep seated within . So here is the point. I don't think an sexy, I think am sensual. I am the kind of woman who will not wear super short handkerchiefs to get men Lusting after me (Well I have had those days, but like I said I have learned many lessons), I will not conform to stereotypes of being the Nairobi woman, because am not. I am the kind of woman who is not afraid to voice her opinion because it makes a man look small but I will not do it out of spite, I only do it because I believe something beautiful will come out of it. I have pride like the unshakable mountains of the world...but I know when to stoop low and let things be, I am not afraid of apologizing when I have done something wrong or I have hurt someone.
I am the kind of woman who is a hopeless romantic,whose mind has been twisted and turned by the wickedness of this world, but still believes that there are good people out there. I am the kind of woman who holds her own.When I walk into a room and people stare, I want to fall because am modest enough to know no human being should be worshiped but am not afraid to command the attention of the room. I might not be the hottest woman this planet has ever seen, but I know my worth.I may be many things, even many bad things but I know he meaning of loyalty and trust and friendship and LOVE.
So if you are a random boy reading this, and you think am one hell of a complicated woman, I am a random chic who knows what she wants and what she is bringing forth to this world...I am alive and it is for that reason that I choose to stop existing and start living...the only way to do that it to give without expecting much, because human beings will disappoint you but I also know there is divine power, who rewards ever so generously...and that day will come when I will get me one fine piece of a$$ who will love me like there is no one else in this world who exists for him...
I am in a happy, happy place :) so don't ruin it !
Till later muchachos :*
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