The Past, Present and Future- I am EVOLVING

I am SCARED.....

Of growing up

Of hitting a stagnant patch

Of disappointments

Of trusting too much

Of letting people down

I am CONSOLED....

That people make mistakes

That life is a journey

That hitting a rock bottom is the only way to get back UP without slipping

That trust is two way

That if you don't expect, you will not be disappointed

In the PAST

I relied on what people thought of me

I doubted my abilities

I sheltered my heart

I focused on the shallow end

I thought only as far as my vision of my nose could take me

In the PRESENT

I am evolving

I am garnering strength

I am getting a laser focus

I am surrounding myself with sun

I am getting rid of clutter

I am NO LONGER SCARED

I am beyond CONSOLED

In the FUTURE

I continue to seek

I find

I seek once more

I find some more

FEAR is a good thing, FEAR is a hindrance...I choose to FIGHT

N.B. I am evolving and I love it. everyday is a new day! Surround your self with positive people and TRUST, then your path will be straight :) This week I have been happy!!!!

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