Lessons learned :)

I know it is not the end of 2011 yet but  I am having one of those gut feelings that this post is coming at just the right moment....I have told several people that I consider dear to me that this year was the year of epiphany. I have learned things about myself no one could ever have taught me... between struggling to find my niche and living a carefree young person's life I have come to appreciate the following things   (and they are a lot of things)

• That is is OK to say NO

See I have been involved in somethings(OK a lot of things) am not so proud of this year. I guess part of the problem is because I cared to much where I was not needed to care and as a result, I always found myself saying YES to everything. Even when it took away a piece of myself every time I partook of it.So next year am saying NO to things I feel are not worth my time.

• That sometimes it needs a little DARING spirit to get something done

I was almost partaking in some stupid party this past Saturday due to peer influence (Yes am still at that stage...it never gets old) but all the while I kept saying how stupid it was for me...and a comment was made that I was severely suffering for risk avereseness :( . That silly comment made me think long and hard and I realized such an attitude  has blocked me from getting a lot of things in life. So am going to be a tad bit DARING see how that works out for me :)

• That I have got to learn to be frigging PATIENT!!!

The biggest ADD I am currently suffering from is IMPATIENCE. It is no longer a weakness, it has become a disorder. I get restless when someone does not get things the way I do and sometimes, I feel like a monster for not being able to exercise patience. I have lost so many things on the way too! but  I am challenged that even for the finest brandy to be that fine, it has to take sometime to mature.....Time produces result (at least for somethings) all it takes is just a little patience to get the result just right.....in the words of the wise ones, PATIENCE pays.

• It is OK to take a break and kick off the blues with good COMPANY and good WINE

There comes a time when I  collapse into bed after a crazy night out, sleep for half of the next day and suddenly feel guilty for having a good time.....blame it on the guilty conscience *wink. But I have learned that for juices to flow, we have to take a break,  forgive me for not being the "lets break bread and pray" kind of person. I would love to be but I am not, so for the blessing of good friends and some good wine, I will have a good time PERIOD.

• To be carry an attitude of GRATITUDE

I can be a whiner sometimes and complain about the things that are not working out for me. But I have forgotten what I have. In this year alone...I graduated, got a job that attempts to pay the bills, met new amazing friends, witnessed the bringing forth of new life, visited places I have never been and most importantly stayed ALIVE! I don't know about you, but that's a lot to be grateful for. So am getting my act together and seeing things in bright lights :)

• Finally, it is OK to let go...

Letting go is the hardest thing but is the best thing to do to unravel new opportunities. I am letting go of negative people, of those whose who do not recognize my worth, of all the negative attitude towards work, of all the bad vibe the world is throwing at me and of all the pain. I am letting go and letting  God.

Having said that, 2011 has been a beautiful year! My nephew is getting baptized this Sato what! what! that boy has grown so fast :) Have a wonderful remainder of 2011, 2012 is the year for me...Can't wait!