It is Monday mid morning and I absolutely have nothing to do at the office shocker but true-one of those days I use to discover my niche. Like all the people who go with the flow, I hate Mondays.I have never liked one Monday one bit...today's is particularly not my favorite. I woke up and paid my daily dues to God ( I forget sometimes but not on Mondays) *Don't judge I need Him more today than most days*- Moment of weakness. Well in my Monday woes I realized most people probably think like me...once they are done with the relaxing or not so relaxing weekend they hate the fact that they are going back to their humdrum lives- whether its school/work/vocation/ commitment Monday acts as the reminder that things have to be done and they have to be done good.The attitude with taking up this challenge is what matters...Today I choose to ignore it, so sue me :)
I choose not to change my mindset on that because it would be easier to pretend am deep and intelligent but am just human and humans are real (Those who dare to be real anyways). Its been three months being single...its not a strange place for me to be in, been there done that BUT this one has been different. More of an eye opener. See, in the beginning I used to live my life the way I thought society wanted me to live it. So everyday I would wake up and think in my head here we go again! I used to run my relationships like I was going to get married the next day. The man I was with was my prince charming and I was the damsel in distress just saved!
Cliche right? (I crack a crooked smile and think so is life ) Then when my castle would be infested with mice and my prince would look at me like I had grown warts sprouting ugly hairs, my world would crush! and I would think what did I do this time- The blame was always on me, beating myself thinking I was not good enough, thinking I should have done more...and my girl would pat me in the back and tell how wonderful she thought I was :) Thank God for good friends :)
Anyways this time round I realized I gave my best and that we simply could not be. I am taking this time to go through the Quarter Life Crisis full circle* quench your curiosity, its the stage one goes through in the process of self discovery* just like some of my friends who are currently going on a rampage and trending for that time when they will finally find their niche, I am doing the same. I am going for all the drink dates, am getting in touch with my inner zen (hence the blog changes), am getting to know people in and out and am performing my auntie duties seriously. No more feeling sad.Heck it's the happiest I have been in months!- I even discovered the feisty in me :) Indulging in my guilty pleasures without any apologies...am not building castles and prince's who don't exist am meeting REAL people #nuffsaid
"Breaking free is only the first step,staying free is the difficult part" Quote I have just read moments ago and it has translated to my thoughts exactly.I am freeing myself from being cliche, from being predictable,am freeing myself from thinking like everyone else :) I know its all about ME MYSELF and I.BUT what better topic? Through me reinventing myself daily, my readers get to grow with me and in turn I add value to them...
ION I know God must love me immensely...I have got amazing friends and family who remind me that am worth so much more everyday ====> Just a random thought, if you were to die today, what value to you think you would have added to the world? I know I will have left behind happy #beautiful humans who would have discovered they are worth much more that the universe is leading them to believe :) *am zenning like that!* Monk moments RELOADED
Till laters muchachos :* I have got some Quarter Life Crisis issues to deal with :)
I choose not to change my mindset on that because it would be easier to pretend am deep and intelligent but am just human and humans are real (Those who dare to be real anyways). Its been three months being single...its not a strange place for me to be in, been there done that BUT this one has been different. More of an eye opener. See, in the beginning I used to live my life the way I thought society wanted me to live it. So everyday I would wake up and think in my head here we go again! I used to run my relationships like I was going to get married the next day. The man I was with was my prince charming and I was the damsel in distress just saved!
Cliche right? (I crack a crooked smile and think so is life ) Then when my castle would be infested with mice and my prince would look at me like I had grown warts sprouting ugly hairs, my world would crush! and I would think what did I do this time- The blame was always on me, beating myself thinking I was not good enough, thinking I should have done more...and my girl would pat me in the back and tell how wonderful she thought I was :) Thank God for good friends :)
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Anyways this time round I realized I gave my best and that we simply could not be. I am taking this time to go through the Quarter Life Crisis full circle* quench your curiosity, its the stage one goes through in the process of self discovery* just like some of my friends who are currently going on a rampage and trending for that time when they will finally find their niche, I am doing the same. I am going for all the drink dates, am getting in touch with my inner zen (hence the blog changes), am getting to know people in and out and am performing my auntie duties seriously. No more feeling sad.Heck it's the happiest I have been in months!- I even discovered the feisty in me :) Indulging in my guilty pleasures without any apologies...am not building castles and prince's who don't exist am meeting REAL people #nuffsaid
"Breaking free is only the first step,staying free is the difficult part" Quote I have just read moments ago and it has translated to my thoughts exactly.I am freeing myself from being cliche, from being predictable,am freeing myself from thinking like everyone else :) I know its all about ME MYSELF and I.BUT what better topic? Through me reinventing myself daily, my readers get to grow with me and in turn I add value to them...
ION I know God must love me immensely...I have got amazing friends and family who remind me that am worth so much more everyday ====> Just a random thought, if you were to die today, what value to you think you would have added to the world? I know I will have left behind happy #beautiful humans who would have discovered they are worth much more that the universe is leading them to believe :) *am zenning like that!* Monk moments RELOADED
Till laters muchachos :* I have got some Quarter Life Crisis issues to deal with :)
Love the new look....aunties duties-check,we will work on your single hood,for now spread your wings and fly enjoy while UR @it...Kisses from Nate(looking fwd to having a white uncle ;))
ReplyDeleteThanks shishi :) I am aunty to the core...What I attract I receive :) so the white uncle is just not far from me :) Kisses right back at Nate he is my fave man at the moment,till Uncle Rodney comes :p
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