Random chic in a not so random town

Am a free bird,loyal to the people I love, believer of the music I make and proud of who and what I have become- Life is a journey, I choose to learn.That is the description I had for myself when it came down to the moment of truth.Strange thing is, I believe every word said here because it flowed like beautiful music .But how does it boil down to my character...how do people really view me? Am I easy to relate with? Am I intimidating? Is it that am too serious for life? Do I wait for the breaking point for me to let loose in a way that the world considers insane? Do I have the insatiable need to fit in and blend? or do I have the dire need to always be different? You be the judge of it but I will give an  in depth description of what I think of myself and how this translates to other people.... I am a free bird I think alone. I might be influenced by the group syndrome but when it comes down to it I always go back and think things through weighing what is good and not good ...

I had a very eerie nightmare yesternight. I don't know if dreams are a premonition of what is to come or a manifestation of the sub-conscience mind...either way I need a dream interpreter STAT! It was spooky,kinda what is making me sink into my own thoughts a lot and yet I can't shake the dream, am trying to forget about it but I will have to prove that it was just a dream by the actions I will take in the coming future. I tend to document bits and pieces about my life before I delve into the sarcastic me..so I will make quick highlights. I have been dealing with getting my life into form,the kind of ABCD lifestyle I want to lead but a lot is just swaying me from that lifestyle. I know I have an ultimate goal but I also realize spirituality is part of that journey and I have to make peace with my God. It is important that I do that. I realize I can lie to everyone else but I can't do that to myself....therefore major lifestyle reform, I have to get there somehow. So my m...